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abused soul shed tears of bloodflowing evermore succumb to the lust the uncontrollable hunger the taste of pain that is no longer mine alone a thirst for the sweetness of revenge forgotten pain or so you thought you will learn that you live thru all that you give my mind rests at ease with the knowledge that you can not run it's impossible to hide for it will all catch up to you in due time you will feel my pain. innocence life in the eyes of an innocent childpain, murder and tears how to survive this world of nightmares and fears they rape my mind you manipulate my body the child that could have been a hero ... isn't aborted and forgotten the mind that could have been a genius ... isn't destroyed and empty lost in a search for temporary peace within one drug after another the wisdom of age is never heard locked away in "retirement homes" and ignored were we all born into this world simply to be used, abused ..... and forgotten hidden hidden behind the scarsunder all the pain is where you find her can you see her? that little girl hiding in the corner with no one to wipe her tears locked in her secluded world refusing to face any outsiders she sits and wonders if there is anyone who ever will see past her scars and pain she dreams of a hero arriving, mending all her wounds, sweeping her off her feet and away from this hell then once again reality awakens her as she looks into the shattered mirror and sees the truth all she has are her scars.. her pain... and her tears... wicked beauty so many people look at you and see your beautybut all they see is the exterior beauty s o many look and see the smile on your face and assume that life has done you well if only they knew where the true beauty within you lies it lies deep within you under all the pain under all the hatred under all the guilt there is so much beauty in you that no one sees, whether it be out of their own ignorance, or out of them not being allowed to see that deep beauty that has been buried been shielded by the rough callous exterior that has been formed due to all pain that has been caused to you so much pain that you have survived so much pain that many would not of been able to endure, but you have the strength you have shown deserves such admiration such respect, such envy the knowledge you have is that of greatness the beauty that you are, is beauty like no other written for... and dedicated to... wicked, an incredible poet and beautiful person tears if the tears fall just as the raindrops do,will they give life just as the rain can do? will the tears wash away the pain, just as ashes washed away in the rain? or will tears do damage to my soul, like an erroding rain out of control. fear you hear the footsteps coming. you know what they are after...the white coats are coming... you can hear it in thier laughter youve been there before.. where then tell you when to eat and when to sleep and when to shower and when to close the door. i dont want to go back to that place. that hell where the demons wear white. so i sit in the corner.. and hide my face. not knowing if i will suvive the night. release unable to bear the pain, ifind release as iwatch the blood flow.the sting from the tears falling on my open flesh is still nothing compared to the pain in my heart the blood covered blade lay next to me... such a beautiful blade. true to life as to that the beautiful things in life are the most deadly the beautiful ones are the ones whom you hold closest... giving them all they need to slay you down and destroy you this you have proved, for you were the beautiful one in my life and you have turned out to be the most deadly as the blood and tears continue to flow simultaneously i have finally found release from this place, and i leave you in peace with one final thought... always remember that i love you with all of me, and i wish you nothing less than happiness alone i lay alone in the corner of an empty room..no one around to hear the screams no one around to see the tears no one around ..... to see life bleeding out of my soul. alone i came into this world and alone i shall leave this place this living hell... for what has my existance here done.. but cause nothing but pain they came they abused and they left. alone i will be in peace... alone i will sleep.. without fear alone i will sleep... eternally untitled abused and abandonedthe innocent child cries alone. reaching out to no one for the comfort he craves nightmares of the past haunt every minute of his life words that flew like daggers fist thrown full of power the voices screaming and yelling forever echoing in his mind words of nothing but hatred.. and pain missing you i walk thru the streets..and can smell the sweet smell of your cologne i turn in hopes of seeing your beautiful smile.. yet another false alarm.. just some stranger. i turn the radio on and hear your favorite song i cant help but wonder wonder if your ok... wonder if your thinking of me... i sit and look thru old photos missing the "us" we used to be where ever you are whatever you do you are forever in my heart. there will never be anyone like you.. there will never be anyone that I love the way I love you. written for... and dedicated to.. domine, my little brother.. and so much more. the darkness as the darkness grows i am less and less of a person.i am beginning to fade into nothing but a distant memory. as the empty blackness begins to take over i fully succumb to it, losing all my strength. it attacks my heart taking what what left of it. i am now truley a heartless person it attacks my mind, what little sanity ihad is now gone forever as i search for a way to end this pain i scribble a note to you... my friend, if you love me as you say you do, please do not allow me to suffer one minute more. the power who gives you the power to be such an evil person.i see you smile as you take my own dagger from my side and thrust it into my heart. as i start to bleed you laugh.. you find joy in watching me slip away, never to be whole again who gave you the power to have so much control over me... to cause me so much pain.... as i lie here blood running out of my body as water thru a cracked damn.... i fight to take each painful breath. i open my eyes and see you standing there over me. i reach my hand out to you one last time for help. you turn and walk away from me... chuckling ever so evilly..... who gave you the power to hurt me like this, who gave you the power to take everything away from me why did you hurt me why do you hate me why did you kill me............ |
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